• Jo Love started therapy to help with severe mental health challenges, now she sees it as a tool for growth and self-development

  • She has shared her experiences and tips for others in her book Therapy is...Magic – watch our interview below

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I am unquestionably a serial people-pleaser. I am chronically helpful. I pride myself on being the capable one, the dependable one, the thoughtful one, the efficient one. And while it is, of course, a very normal human attribute to want to be liked by and connected to those around us, to shift ourselves slightly around different people we know in order to be accepted, I take this too far. I attend to the whims of others before my own, often leading me to take on more and more and not even notice when I’ve crossed the line into self-neglect and exhaustion.

It is still very much a work in progress for me, but therapy is helping me not only to learn where this has come from but also to unpick who I am underneath all the chameleon-like contortions I twist myself into.

Growing up, it felt like my parents, and my father in particular, prized my academic achievement above all else. What was said was, ‘We want you to do more with your lives than we did with ours’, but what therapy has helped me to see is that my small child brain heard that my father’s love was tied to my performance academically.

He never said ‘I will only love you if you succeed’, but that message was reinforced many times over in subtle ways, so this is what I heard. I recall, aged seven, a teacher said I was average at maths; my father’s reaction was that this was unacceptable on my part. I heard the disappointment, saw the displeasure; I felt the rejection and internalised it as shame. But then I would also see the pride, the happiness, the joy when I was excelling, when I became a straight-A student. I felt I had no choice than to keep this up.

What drove me to achieve wasn’t a deep love for, or interest in every subject, but a desire to win the heart of a father who I felt was unable to tell the difference between loving me and loving my achievements, from separating the girl from the grades.

He would have no idea how much pressure he put on me to succeed. It would break his heart to know that I grew up believing his love for me was unconsciously conditioned on me excelling at everything I did and how scared I was of disappointing him, which then permeated into every aspect of my life. I pushed myself, perfection was the goal. I was hard on myself, probably far harder than he had ever been on me, and I never felt I could measure up. I never felt good enough. After all, living in a constant state of perfection is not possible to achieve.

Therapy has helped me to revisit and reshape these experiences. It’s helped me to go back and speak directly to that seven-year-old girl and tell her a kinder, softer message. Tell her how her best was good enough, how she was loved no matter what she achieved. How she was absolutely wonderful just as she was.

The ripple effect of these experiences throughout my life has been examined and re-examined in the therapy room. Relearning what success actually is to me. Relearning who I am underneath the achievements, underneath all the masks.

‘You must have loved your parents so very much to have left your true self behind to please them.’

She does it again.


Love lies behind it all. I am not a bad person – there is not emptiness behind the masks. Far from emptiness in fact, there is love. Love was the reason, love is behind it all.

Slowly, piece by piece, one tiny step at a time, therapy is helping me begin to learn I am not the four lies I have been telling myself my whole life:

  • I am not what I do.
  • I am not what I have.
  • I am not what I achieve.
  • I am not what other people think about me.

One day I will be free of these lies.

Therapists have a way of dropping some seriously wise shit on you, some of which can stick with you for a long time. Some of the important lessons I’ve learned include:

  • It’s OK to fail. It’s OK to mess up and make mistakes.
  • Crying isn’t giving up or a weakness, crying helps.
  • Everything is temporary.
  • The only person you can change is you. But by you changing, other people and things around you may well shift too.
  • Most of the things you think of as my fault are not your fault.
  • Healing and growth does not happen overnight and there is no finishing line.
  • Happiness is in the now, or nowhere at all.

Therapy definitely isn’t supposed to eradicate all sadness, anger, frustration or other negative emotions from our lives. And what I’ve learned is it’s a good thing it doesn’t, because often it’s those tougher emotions that serve as important internal cues for us all. For me, that’s part of the magic of therapy. Therapy is there to gently help me learn how to sit with, accept and not be debilitated by these feelings, all while cultivating self-awareness. The result? I’ve learned how to tune in and make choices that make the most sense for me.

Rather than achieving perpetual bliss, therapy is about learning how to more confidently be able to navigate life off the proverbial couch.

Jo Love is the author of Therapy is…magic: An essential guide to the ups, downs and life-changing experiences of talking therapy

Further reading

From mania to post-traumatic growth: how therapy saved me

Hurt people heal people too: my journey to becoming a counsellor

My therapist told me I didn't know myself – they were right

How EMDR helped me recover after birth trauma

After my cancer diagnosis, therapy helped me feel less alone